My lovely wife is asleep and the room is now a silent slumber with a gentle high pitched buzzing sound coming from the muted TV while melancholic R and B melodies massages my ears through my cheap headphones. As usual I’m sitting in front of my machine revamping websites, checking my emails and blogging down my current state of mind.
Hoping to find a sentence to aptly depict the mixed emotions stirring in my heart is harder than I thought. With friends leaving, friends I wish to spend more time with but can’t, friends I hope I knew better but don’t, friends who are so near yet so far, friends that I once knew well but not so anymore. The tugging in my heart is like a kid who’s heart dropped to the ground when that scoop of ice-cream hit the ground, leaving only the cone that’s left behind to stab deeper into the wound. Like the lounge singer singing away with true emotions and a tear in his eye while people just go on with their lives laughing away and gulping down on social spirits.
Why are there moody times, why are there times when one would feel down and lonely when clearly they are surrounded by loved ones who cares.
One Last Cry
Brian McKnight
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
I give my best to you?
Nothing for me to do?
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you out of my mind, this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain on me
Still, I sit all alone,
Wishing all my feelings were gone
Gotta get over you?
Nothing for me to do?
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you out of my mind, this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to one last cry
I know I gotta be strong,
But ’round me
Life goes on and on and on, and on
I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I have my one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you out of my mind, this very last time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down to my last cry
we’re here with you man, when I get back – we’ll go to the beach?
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I can’t help but decide to post something with regards to this entry. Likewise, I’m feeling the same way too. I find it really hard to explain but what you’ve said, I mean the part about friends and loved ones and everything makes a whole lot of sense to me. Hopefully, we can find the answer for feeling this way.
i guess y u feel that way is b’cos u r too free in the night…too free..yes too relac! hence has the time to be emotional! actually, tis feeling is great…when i was young i think a lot abt my loved ones abt the past abt the future..but now i dun even have time to sleep..today is going my be my 3rd dae overnight in the office with my mug, monitor, keyboard, mouse, applications Arrgh…. HOW I WISH TO BE LIK U! *sigh after some “free thinker” time still can wake ur wife up and do some excercise ….tis is life man enjoy it…slow and steady ~ ;~