Kelly Clarkson – Sober

And I don’t know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it’s never really over

And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won’t worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I’m still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It’s never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I’m still standing here
Three months and I’m getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it’s still harder now
Three months I’ve been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months and I’m still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

Burnout

Woke up this morning feeling tired. I think its the compounded lack of sleep plus the high brain cell burn rate over the last couple of weeks. Each and every single thing i have to think about will bug me badly. Every SMS i receive makes me wanna throw my phone at someone.

Could not drive to church and even during the service i felt unwell. Then at mid afternoon, my mind and body gave up. I felt horrible. My body stopped responding me. I had to head home.

Stumbled to bed… and crashed. Not sure what happened after that. Only remembered my wife caring for me.

I thank God for my wife constantly, she somehow managed to nurse me back to health with ginger water and a soothing medicated backrub. Ready to get back to work on monday for another week.

Jam on Faber

We went to Gillman’s village to have a simple dinner to celebrate my Mom’s birthday. Everyone was there, Dad, Mom, all my siblings and even Grandma. It was a really nice night.

After dinner we decided to drive up Mt Faber for fun also to do something together. We parked at the peak got off and went to have a look at the cable cars, it was really nice and calm.

When we were going off, while going down slope, we got into a jam. People were honking and some got off their cars to see what was happening. I did the same and from what i can see, i think a bus was stuck. I asked my brother to come along with me to see whats happening and as kaypoh Singaporeans, we went up ahead to check things out.

The bus was really stuck and its not just because the road was narrow, the car on its right sticked out into the road too much, the car on the left was illegal parking. Afraid to hit those cars, the bus driver did not know what to do. There was no way he could move as it was at a turn… and buses need space to turn.

After a quick assessment, i shouted at everyone, “hey lets try to move the cars”, no body responded at first untill a big sized guy started to put his hand on the car. We pushed and pushed, but it did not move. Knowing that its either we succeed or we get stuck here for dunno how long, we gave it another shot. This time we bounced the car. As the car bounced, it hopped abit, abit more and yet a bit more and its done. The bus tried moving, but the other car was still blocking, so without anymore hesitation, we started moving the other car. lol… After a while, all went back to their cars and everything was back to normal.

Its cool to see people getting together to solve problems. So for the record, yes you can move cars with your bare hands.

5785

Went for a family wedding today and it was a nice church wedding. With church weddings comes songs and definitely also the sharing of the word.

During the reception my in laws told me that the Pastor gave them 4D numbers. I was a bit surprised at first as i can’t imagine what they meant, but as they explained it became clear.

You see, during the sermon, the Pastor was actually talking about the husband and wife relationship and there was one point where he was explaining that the man need to make decisions when no one can make the decision. The example he used was choosing the colour to paint the house.

He said, colour 5 seems nice, 7 also quite nice, but 8 also not bad, but then finally decided to got for colour 5. So there you have it, a Pastor giving out 4D numbers, 5785! lol… I had a good laugh.