April 2014 I started changing my wallpaper almost every other week on Wednesday and the main purpose for that, is for me to capture the feelings of that week and visually represent it with a short caption only I understand. I scroll thru tumblr, see a picture that nicely represents my mood and its done.

It’s been 4 years since and looking back at some of these pictures, the memories start flowing back. Some are really sad, some are really happy.

Today, marks the last day of a dear friend in the company and I’m reminded of a Wallpaper from last year I’ve put up after talking to her and this got me thinking that I should decrypt some of them before I completely forget them.

Here goes.

We chatted.
And when we chatted,
I said all I wanted to say.

Without reservations,
I said what I believed you needed to hear.

Without thinking of repercussions,
I said everything I said
in the best way I knew how.

We chatted.
And when we chatted,
I’m not sure if I heard what I wanted to hear.

With reservations,
You said what you think I needed to hear.

With the best intentions I believe,
You said everything you said
In the the way you always do.

We chatted.
Let’s chat again.
I’ve got more to say
and more that I want to hear.

A colleague asked me out for coffee and sought advice on her career and because its a treasured colleague I had people-first mentality and shared honestly what I really felt. However, I was unsure if I helped or further confused.

The following 3 is from a set of 12 where a group of friends are journeying with a close friend going thru a traumatic relationship.

Where are you bumblebee? Stop shedding tears of gold.

Where are you flying sting? Come back to your family and be whole.

The close friend of ours simply disappeared.

It’s suppose to fill you up with butterflies of smiles.

It’s suppose to radiate a warm comforting embrace.

It’s suppose to tease you with a whisper in the ear.

It’s suppose to sweep you off your feet.

It’s suppose to shelter you from hurt.

It’s suppose to love you with the love you know.

Our friend going over a hard time in her relationship.

Some friends are family.

And no one messes with my family.

I really hate it when my friends gets played and I was on a killing spree in my mind.

Love is greater then many things, even grades.

When your kids come back with grades they are not satisfied with.

Some roads we have to walk alone.

When you are going thru some really ugly personal stuff that you can’t talk to anyone about.

A step at a time.

Then step step triple step, step step kick ball change and kick ball change and triple step, rock step stomp hold and repeat till the song ends. Smile and thank your partner.

The time when Pearl and I went for a Lindy Hop Dance camp.

To Phuket we go.

Ok, this one not cryptic at all. Just so happy to be going for a no kids trip with our fellow adult friends staying in a big Pool Villa. Video post trip here.

Just another day.
Hope you are doing fine too.

The moment at work where you are burning out.

While watching the world go by, I can’t help but think of those few issues at work and at home. I’m here, but not here.

While commuting home from work, I think about what caption I want to put for this image. I’m here, but not here.

I look up. 

I watch the world go by.

I’m here.

I’m going home.

Struggling to juggle with many responsibilities and constantly not being 100% one place at a time.

Behind every family,
there have been fights, arguments, and tears.
More pains, disappointments, and heartache
would surely follow.

So let’s celebrate our victories;
remember the good times,
create new happy memories.
It’s the joy in doing these things
that will bring us through the bad times
and give us strength
to face the challenges to come.

Memories created to savour the quality family time that will be remembered forever.

Let the world stand still once in a while.

The time where the wife is really into you. ;)

Thepans Japan 2017

The trip we have all been waiting for. We head to Japan and will be at Osaka and Kyoto. There will be lots of sightseeing, shopping, food and cultural immersion.

Rather than doing a big blog post, I’ve been journalling our journey in Instagram instead and here is the full collection of our best photos.

KONICHIWA Japan! Much excites! #ThepansJP2017 #cleopan #clarapan #cliepan

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A few lovely photos of #cleopan that was on Pearls phone. #ThepansJP2017

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Kids hungry so parents become foodPANda delivery service. #ThepansJP2017

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Breakfast. #ThepansJP2017

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Ive always wanted to stay in a proper legit Ryokan and this trip to Kyoto, our stay is the highlight. To book for our family of 5 is not so easy and Ryokan is also charged per head, it all adds up to quite a bit. I took too long to choose, then there are only a few left I could book and Im glad my top shortlist Yachiyo was still available. Our room is called Honkan (yes its true) I remember when I was young, my parents would bring us on trips and create wonderful memories and knowing that they managed to provide that to my siblings and I, Ive always told myself I must also be able to provide my kids such trips to and to create good memories when they are young. So my kids have their grandparents to thank. We arrived today and was not disappointed. Very nice and how Ive imagined a Ryokan should be, the staff were also very professional and friendly. Past few nights Ive been telling the girls about what Onsen is and how they need to keep know the etiquette of a public bath in Japan and they freaked out. Their dad made them travel all the way to Japan to be naked in front of strangers was unfathomable. lol. I had my fun for a while as they were glad to realize it was a private bath. Im really looking forward to the authentic Kyo-Kaiseki 12 course Japanese dinner tmr in our Ryokan in our Yukata. But first, lets sleep. The kids all KO after their dip. Arashiyama tmr. #ThepansJP2017 #Kyoto #Japan #cliepan #clarapan #cleopan

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Glorious morning. #ThepansJP2017 #Kyoto #Japan #Ryokan #Onsen

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We spent the whole afternoon at Nishiki Market. Lots to see and eat. We lunched thru our journey in the Market. One thing to note is that in Japan, always eat at the stall and get rid of your trash at the same stall, else its kinda rude to walk around with your food and there are no bins so always bring small plastic bags. Ice cream with mini rice crackers is the bomb. It adds that much needed texture kick to an ice cream. Kids found Daiso branded clay and they went crazy and almost emptied the shelves. Apparently it is a much sought after ingredient to make slime with the perfect viscosity and the slime wont turn to muck or harden. The whole Singapore no more stock already since Jan 2017. #ThepansJP2017 #Kyoto #Japan #cliepan #cleopan #clarapan

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Simple day today. We left Kyoto via Shinkansen for Osaka and everyone was amazed at how fast it was as the normal train to Kyoto took quite some time. Dropped off our luggage at the Hotel and headed for Kuromon Market to have lunch and check out the giant crab legs and seafood. We then walked to Denden Town to checkout the toys. Clara bought a bunch of cute Japanese figurines. Cleo got a few too and as a bonus I found a Star Wars Scout Trooper which Ive always wanted but too lazy to order. Went to Gram with the hopes to try they super fluffy pancakes but they only sell 20 sets every 2 hours and we were there at the wrong time. Anyway, headed back to the hotel and had a simple non Japanese Dinner. Pizza! Ok, time to do laundry and get ready for USJ tmr. #ThepansJP2017 #cleopan #clarapan #cliepan #Osaka #Japan

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USJ day in Osaka. Cleo and Clara wore their onesie for the whole day and felt totally comfortable in it. It looks fun and was also functional in the cold. We eventually did not get the express pass as no one really take rides in the family. Lets just say all the rides we took had < 5mins queue. Think Tea Cup / Merry Go Round. The most exciting one would be the one Cleo and Clara *yawn* took *yawn* have you seen the angle of the steep slope!! Harry Potter world was quite amazing. The whole place felt out of this world. Jaws was meh. Felt like lots of seafood. Jurassic World had a super scary ride and we were so entertained just looking at people screaming. Jaws felt like a big seafood area and Backdraft section knew their swing music. :) Minion world was colorful but not really our thing. We walked pass the rest briefly. Tiring day but we felt like Good parents. #ThepansJP2017 #cliepan #cleopan #clarapan #japan #osaka #UniversalStudios #USJ

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Started the day with waffles for brunch at Namba Wall then took a train to Shinsaibashi to Shop. Daimaru, 7 floors of Tokyu Hands where we went crazy only to be followed by 3 floors of Daiso. Walked a lot more and slowly walked back to Namba where our hotel is. Kids at the Cup Noodles they made at the Cup Noodle Museum and we parents went out to eat random local food. I had raw sea urchin for the first time and it was in a bowl of low grade raw stuff and rice. Ewww… lol. Had to get back to hotel to have MY Cup Noodle which my eldest Cli caringly made for me complete with chopsticks, wet wipes and a bottle of water. ?????? Ok now to shower and sleep. Tmr we gonna split up and me and the kiddy girls will go Denden Town again and the big girls will do their girly shopping. #ThepansJP2017 #Osaka #Japan

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Last minute shopping day started with Ice Cream for breakfast. We spent most of the day at Bic Camera knowing that our luggages are bursting at he seams. Cleo and Clara really like their Gachapon (that put money in then turn turn to get a capsule ball surprise). Clara was amused to see an adult also so excited about it. I bought a smartphone gimbal (stupid me, should have bought it at the start of the trip). That is the final thing I bought for myself on this trip which totals at 2 items lol. The other was a Star Wars Scout Trooper figurine which Ive been looking for ages. Last bite at Namba with Osakas famous octopus balls and we are off to the Airport heading for home on a red eye flight. #ThepansJP2017 #cliepan #cleopan #clarapan #Osaka #Japan #Namba #BicCamera #travel #holiday

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Till the next trip.

Daddy Matters: The OCBC Cycle Coincidance

My last post I asked everyone what dance should we do at the top of Shears Bridge. A resounding “Coincidance” was requested. As promised, we Daddy Matters DANCED to it! WHOOP WHOOP.

We started super early before sunrise and met everyone at our planned start point which was near our secret prata place. Every prepped their bikes and we headed to the starting point.

Along the ride, strangely I hardly took any pictures. I was really enjoying the ride and the company of good friends. At the end we posed for an epic shot and it truly was a power shot.

We all had fun, spent time together as good friends and ended the day with prata for everyone. Till next year OCBC Cycle. :)