April 2014 I started changing my wallpaper almost every other week on Wednesday and the main purpose for that, is for me to capture the feelings of that week and visually represent it with a short caption only I understand. I scroll thru tumblr, see a picture that nicely represents my mood and its done.

It’s been 4 years since and looking back at some of these pictures, the memories start flowing back. Some are really sad, some are really happy.

Today, marks the last day of a dear friend in the company and I’m reminded of a Wallpaper from last year I’ve put up after talking to her and this got me thinking that I should decrypt some of them before I completely forget them.

Here goes.

We chatted.
And when we chatted,
I said all I wanted to say.

Without reservations,
I said what I believed you needed to hear.

Without thinking of repercussions,
I said everything I said
in the best way I knew how.

We chatted.
And when we chatted,
I’m not sure if I heard what I wanted to hear.

With reservations,
You said what you think I needed to hear.

With the best intentions I believe,
You said everything you said
In the the way you always do.

We chatted.
Let’s chat again.
I’ve got more to say
and more that I want to hear.

A colleague asked me out for coffee and sought advice on her career and because its a treasured colleague I had people-first mentality and shared honestly what I really felt. However, I was unsure if I helped or further confused.

The following 3 is from a set of 12 where a group of friends are journeying with a close friend going thru a traumatic relationship.

Where are you bumblebee? Stop shedding tears of gold.

Where are you flying sting? Come back to your family and be whole.

The close friend of ours simply disappeared.

It’s suppose to fill you up with butterflies of smiles.

It’s suppose to radiate a warm comforting embrace.

It’s suppose to tease you with a whisper in the ear.

It’s suppose to sweep you off your feet.

It’s suppose to shelter you from hurt.

It’s suppose to love you with the love you know.

Our friend going over a hard time in her relationship.

Some friends are family.

And no one messes with my family.

I really hate it when my friends gets played and I was on a killing spree in my mind.

Love is greater then many things, even grades.

When your kids come back with grades they are not satisfied with.

Some roads we have to walk alone.

When you are going thru some really ugly personal stuff that you can’t talk to anyone about.

A step at a time.

Then step step triple step, step step kick ball change and kick ball change and triple step, rock step stomp hold and repeat till the song ends. Smile and thank your partner.

The time when Pearl and I went for a Lindy Hop Dance camp.

To Phuket we go.

Ok, this one not cryptic at all. Just so happy to be going for a no kids trip with our fellow adult friends staying in a big Pool Villa. Video post trip here.

Just another day.
Hope you are doing fine too.

The moment at work where you are burning out.

While watching the world go by, I can’t help but think of those few issues at work and at home. I’m here, but not here.

While commuting home from work, I think about what caption I want to put for this image. I’m here, but not here.

I look up. 

I watch the world go by.

I’m here.

I’m going home.

Struggling to juggle with many responsibilities and constantly not being 100% one place at a time.

Behind every family,
there have been fights, arguments, and tears.
More pains, disappointments, and heartache
would surely follow.

So let’s celebrate our victories;
remember the good times,
create new happy memories.
It’s the joy in doing these things
that will bring us through the bad times
and give us strength
to face the challenges to come.

Memories created to savour the quality family time that will be remembered forever.

Let the world stand still once in a while.

The time where the wife is really into you. ;)

The Hairband

The Hairband - Clie Pan the Hand Model

Today is the Hairband’s happiest day of his life.

He’s hugging her elbow as she commutes to work.

It’s been a full month since he left the factory. Thirty-one days spent sitting at the back of the dusty shelves in the supermarket. Out of all the bags of hairbands on display, she picked the one he is in. And out of all the hairbands she could have picked this morning in the bathroom, she picked him.

It’s destiny.

The world is amazing. The world is beautiful.

All these sights and sounds.

All these busy people going to mysterious places.

Just travelling with her wrapped around her elbow, exploring the world, and going on this adventure is just bliss.

The world is wonderful and exciting again. He has great expectations of his life with her from now on.

He will hold her hair while she is eating, keep her hair neat in meetings.

When she is bored, she will play with him in her smooth hands and make little shapes.

He has great expectations. The world is beautiful.

She reaches out to the Hairband and pulls him out of his embrace of her arm, preparing to tie her hair.

The Hairband drops into the gap between the train and the platform.

She reaches into her bag and pulls out another Hairband.

Sojung, Korea’s Queen of Ballads

I don’t remember when I first heard Lee Sojung’s voice. Unique, Husky, Sincere, Honest, Gentle. It would have been most likely this video of her singing “I Don’t Love you” by Urban Zakapa from YouTube and I was mesmerised. There is a strange painful and melancholic quality to her voice. She looked like she meant every word she uttered and her facial expressions just reinforced that.

Slowly I went to check out other songs she did.

She did a collab for “I don’t want” by Jung Key and it’s the same heart wrenching quality that makes you want to be honest to yourself and cry your heart out. Maybe I’m weird, but I don’t know how better to explain the feeling when I hear her sing.

One of her latest song “Better than Me” again slows you down and just like in the music video, makes you look into nothing and focus on nothing and just soak in the melancholy.

After getting all the lyrics translated, the powerful phrases made the songs immediate classics in my mind.

How does her voice have this quality? Who is she? What are her life experiences?

I set out to investigate.

Lee So-jung, one of the finalists on The Voice Korea 2012, main vocals of Ladies Code. Then I read up more about Ladies’ Code and I cried…

The band Ladies’ Code was formed by Polaris Entertainment and the band originally had 5 members. Ashley, EunB, RiSe, Sojung, Zuny. On 3 Sep 2014 the group returning to Seoul after a performance at Daegu ran into a fatal accident. The back tire of the van they were in fell out and the van ran into the wall. EunB was dead at the scene of the accident and she was 21. RiSe had 4 surgeries but doctors had to stop when her blood pressure fell and she went into a coma. 4 days later RiSe passed away, she was 23.

Sojung had major injuries as well and underwent surgery for her arm and fractured skull. Sojung reportedly apologised for her inability to continue with their current performances with Ladies’ Code when she regained consciousness not knowing that her bandmates have passed. She then suspected something when all her visitors came in black.

The other two members Ashley and Zuny did not have any major injuries, but were said to be treated for their severe shock.

How did this accident turn out so terribly horrific? The ambulance worker stated, “While saving the lives of those who were collapsed after going out to the site, I do not recall undoing any seat belts.”


How would you feel if you were 3 of your 5 band mates that had an accident and needed surgery, but you were the only one that survived?

The accident was on 3 September 2014. Sojung’s turned 21 that fateful day.


A week after the tragedy, a music video for Ladies’ Code’s song “I’m Fine Thank You” was released showing Ladies’ Code having fun, working hard, and talking directly to the camera. The song had become a rallying cry by fans after the tragedy. It also became the memorial song for Ladies’ Code after the accident killed two members.

Then one year later, Ladies’ Code released “I’ll Smile Even If It Hurts”. It’s painful just to see the lyrics knowing what happened.


Anyway, Sojung have amazing talent and I’ll continue to watch out for her music.


Sojung released two new songs around the 5th Anniversary of Ladies’ Code. ‘Crystal Clear’ and ‘Stay Here’.

I’m liking how her music direction is going.