Passion and Refocusing

My mom told me when I was much younger “either you do what you like or do what you are naturally good at.” I think that’s so true and wise even up till today after having 3 kids. We all need to be doing something that gives us enough drive to make us want to continue.

If you are feeling tired and fatigued, you are not alone. If you are feeling that all you are doing is just to make ends meet, you are not alone. If you are putting off the things you need to do in the next few years to achieve your dreams, you are not alone.

I know a few of the skaters featured in the above video “Grind & Air“. We used to skate together and its great to see some are still skating and kicking ass. To me, I think they made it. They kept with their passion and consistently improved their craft. I’m really proud of them.

In Singapore, there is no money in skating. We don’t have big skate brands from Singapore, skating is not main stream, its a sub-culture. So to keep at it and still have the drive, to me that’s true passion. You need to set aside time for it, you need to commit.

Of late I got caught up with lots of stuff, work, having Clara, kids education, twitter, facebook, etc. The next thing you know, so much time have slipped by and all I want to do is rest. Its a vicious cycle. I blame it partially in the fact that we are all so connected, we are all so online, we are all so distracted. Peter Bregman explained it best in his article Why I Returned My iPad. I agree with him, the problem is me, its not my iPad.

I’m sick of it, I’m sick of myself. So now, I’m gonna refocus, I’m gonna take away distractions, I’m gonna set aside time, I’m gonna commit. I’ll get back to do stuff that I like and stuff that I’m good at. I’ll refocus and get back on track with my passions.

A few more beautiful skate videos below for motivation and to remind us all not let go of our passions. Keep rollin… Keep your passions alive…

MADRID LONGBOARD from Juan Rayos on Vimeo.

skate – shot on red #1347 – 120 fps from Raphaël Aupy on Vimeo.

Clara Pan

Mt Elizabeth Delivery Suite 3
Mt Elizabeth Delivery Suite 3

We were having dinner and Pearl thinks her water bag ruptured slightly, we stopped what we were doing and brought our kids home. Showered, changed, we decided to rest at home to monitor Pearl a bit more as water was suppose to be gushing, but it was not as dramatic as we thought. Clié and Cleo was induced, so it was still quite a new experience for Pearl.

We were quite sure it was time, so off to the hospital we go. The nurses checked Pearl’s situation and it was confirmed she was in labour.

The Twitpic Foursquare Check-in Tweet to Facebook Announcement
The Announcement

I made an announcement online with my mobile and realised that I’ve actually use several online services all below 140 characters. So the announcement contained the #ClaraPan hastag,  a picture which i uploaded to Twitpic, a Foursquare Check-in into the hospital which was automatically pushed to my Twitter and it also automatically pushed to my Facebook wall + the tweet is also displayed on my Blog’s sidebar. What a time we live in.

Choo Choo icon at MEH
Choo Choo icon at MEH

All the cables were hooked up and the baby’s heartbeat could be heard thru the speakers. It sounded very much like a choo choo train as depicted by the animated choo choo train icon. Very kid-dish-ly cute.

Alot of people have asked me to update them when the baby was coming, so what better way to announce it thru twitter from 12:30am onwards on an early sunday morning of a long weekend.

Epidural
Epidural

The epidural machine always looked fierce.

Solo Performance
Solo Performance

There was another lady who gave birth at about 1:30am or so, but after that the whole Delivery Ward was left to Pearl. The night was quite uneventful, Pearl waited and slept a bit. I sat on the retro brown reclining sofa chair at the side and slept too. I can only imagine the number of fathers who must have sat on the same chair eagerly waiting for the arrival of their little bundle of joy.

For Clié, Pearl admitted in the morning and delivered her in the evening. For Cleo, Pearl admitted in the morning and delivered her in the afternoon. For Clara, Pearl had to go in at midnight and delivered her in the morning.

Clara's hair being washed
Clara's hair being washed

After a tiring wait overnight, our gyne Dr Yeoh said Pearl was ready to push as she was fully dilated. I think she just gave 4 real good push and Clara was out. The nurses cleaned her up and baby looked perfect.

Clara's right foot
Clara's right foot

A footprint was also taken.

Pearl lost quite a lot of blood, hence Dr Yeoh had to attend to her for quite a while more. I don’t want to go into details, but I’m glad everything turned out well. Its amazing that our doctor knew exactly what to do, who to call, what medication to give, etc. Its definitely  not easy being a doctor at all, they can’t Google on the spot.

I would like to sincerely thank everyone who have prayed for Pearl. She is fine now. Thank God!

Happy Birthday Clara
Happy Birthday Clara

In the evening, we celebrated Clara’s birthday with a simple cake. It was after all the day she was born.

Clara Pan
Clara Pan

The next day, after dropping Clié off at school, I headed back to the hospital. Mommy was fine, baby was fine, everything was nice and peaceful.

While the nurses were attending to Pearl, I had a good long period of one on one time with Clara.

I looked at her, hummed to her, talked to her as if she could understand me while she was sleeping.

Thank you for coming into our lives Clara.

My Girls

Clié in 2010
Clié Pan

My girls are growing up well. They both have their very own distinct character. Clié is turning 8 and in P2, Cleo is turning 6 and in K2.

Clié Pan

Clié is an emotional girl and can be very sensitive at times. I would say she is rich in her feelings and its clear when she prefers to see drama on TV over cartoons. She will ask things like why this person like this, why that person like that, etc. Plus, she loves to explain to us what she understands too.

She is extremely fidgety and simply can’t sit still. She runs, sings, jumps, dances, twirls and makes loud exclamations as if she is in Camp Rock when she suddenly breaks into song like she is in a musical.

Then five minutes later, its Korean drama where she chokes on her tears and her self esteem takes a nose dive. I think she is a teenager already. With all the makeup, clothes, shoes, accessories, she IS a girl, not yet a women.

Cleo Pan
Cleo Pan

Cleo Pan

Cleo is a bubbly girl. She is organised, cheerful and generally a lot simpler. She does not do stuff that will make her parents shout at her, but instead her cute little moves makes her parents want to talk to her softly and cuddly her like one of her many carebear plush. Like today, she tied one of her small soft toy on her hair band and went for class. So cuuutteeeee.

She is not into princess stuff, but into soft toys, fast cars, tools and Animal Planet. To me, she is a cool kid.

HOWEVER, she is one of the most stubborn person in the house. If her mind is set on something, its easier to tell Obama to pull out of middle east then to tell her to change her mind (yah yah i’m exaggerating). But i think that might be the only thing that makes us frown.

She is proactive and well organised. For her birthday this year, she told us that it will start at 1pm, cake cutting at 4pm and party will end at 5pm. Both of us parents were surprised, but thats just how Cleo is. She will nag to do stuff for her if i’m suppose to. Like buy her batteries, bring her somewhere, do something for her etc. So she becomes my default reminder person in the house. She WILL remember and reminds me with a smile with her blinky eyes.

Ms #3 Pan

So Pearl is now 38 weeks preggy with #3, we are all wondering how this person will be like. Will she be more like Clié or Cleo? Will she be more like Daddy or Mommy? Or will she be totally different from the rest of us. Just a few days more and Pearl will pop.

I will be giving live updates on twitter and will announce the Hashtag when we go to the hospital. Follow me on twitter at @nickpan if you want to know. Just a few days away, just a few days away.

#AisFor

This is a very simple game on Twitter. You just need to start tweeting “A is for [something]” with the Hashtag #AisFor then your friends can continue with “B is for [something] #AisFor”.

Just started it randomly and it ended with 3 other friends participating at the end. The hashtag only started at J.

@nickpan: A is for Angst
@jackiegay: @nickpan B is for boliao n C is for Cookie!!!
@nickpan: @jackiegay D is for Deadline
@jackiegay: @nickpan E is for Erdinger!
@nickpan: @jackiegay F is for FRIDAYYYYYYY
@chaos_pk: @nickpan G is for gg
@nickpan: @chaos_pk @jackiegay H is for HTTP://NICKPAN.COM
@chaos_pk: @nickpan @jackiegay i is for ipad
@nickpan: @chaos_pk @jackiegay J is for Javascript #AisFor
@chaos_pk: #AisFor K is for Kinokuniya!
@nickpan: @chaos_pk #AisFor L is for LPPL
@chaos_pk: @nickpan #AisFor M is for Me which is also for N which is NICE :D
@nickpan: @chaos_pk #AisFor O is for OMG, P is for PK!
@chaos_pk: @nickpan #AisFor Q is for Quickly! just a little bit more to go ;)
@nickpan: @jackiegay @chaos_pk #AisFor S is for Sleep
@jackiegay: @chaos_pk @nickpan why no J??! J is for no Jam haha! #Aisfor
@chufang: @nickpan #AisFor T is for Tweet @jackiegay @chaos_pk
@jackiegay: @chufang @nickpan @chaos_pk U is for Umbrella cos there’s so much rain!!
@jackiegay: @chufang @nickpan @chaos_pk V is for Vampire n W is for Wikipedia
@nickpan: @jackiegay @chufang @chaos_pk #AisFor X is for XHTML & XML & XXX
@nickpan: @jackiegay @chufang @chaos_pk #AisFor Y is for Y the hell are we doing this?
@chufang: @nickpan #AisFor Z is for what we should be doing @jackiegay @chaos_pk

Its super random, I think it needs to fall into a theme.

Other then it being a casually  fun MMOG (massive multiplayer online game) on micro blogging site twitter, there are of cause many other reasons why this game is a good game. ;)

Top 6 Digital Agency Super Powers

I do web projects all the time and meet clients and colleagues of all sorts. I’ve come to realise back in 2007 that individuals need to have some superpowers in order to get across everyday. Here are top 6 I got inspired from Heroes.

  1. Telepathy & Clairvoyance – An ability to see into a clients mind and understand what he means by “ I want it easy to use”, and others such vaguerisms. Need to be able to get into a client’s mind and find out what they want to do.
  2. Persuasion – An ability to convince a client that he does not need a flash splash screen or pages of content that reads “Under Construction”. More importantly to educate clients to know that the rates are very fair.
  3. Precognition – An ability to see into the future and anticipate new trends. The ability to design what the client will eventually accept so as to skip the countless time wasting revisions.
  4. Invulnerability – Even when the style police start picking on the website, this ability stops looking at the negative criticisms and focus on the possible next steps.
  5. Technopathy – Control, configure & commission technological solutions with superb knowledge across all platforms.
  6. Intuitive Aptitude – Ability to analyse complex systems and intuitively understand how they work without special education or training.

So what other “Abilities” do you think is useful?