My church will be having a hilarious remix play of Noah’s Ark this coming sunday 17th Nov 2002. More information about “The Zark” can be found here. If you’re free this Sunday, do come down and have a laugh with us. ;D
One last cry
My lovely wife is asleep and the room is now a silent slumber with a gentle high pitched buzzing sound coming from the muted TV while melancholic R and B melodies massages my ears through my cheap headphones. As usual I’m sitting in front of my machine revamping websites, checking my emails and blogging down my current state of mind.
Hoping to find a sentence to aptly depict the mixed emotions stirring in my heart is harder than I thought. With friends leaving, friends I wish to spend more time with but can’t, friends I hope I knew better but don’t, friends who are so near yet so far, friends that I once knew well but not so anymore. The tugging in my heart is like a kid who’s heart dropped to the ground when that scoop of ice-cream hit the ground, leaving only the cone that’s left behind to stab deeper into the wound. Like the lounge singer singing away with true emotions and a tear in his eye while people just go on with their lives laughing away and gulping down on social spirits.
Why are there moody times, why are there times when one would feel down and lonely when clearly they are surrounded by loved ones who cares.
One Last Cry
Brian McKnight
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
I give my best to you?
Nothing for me to do?
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you out of my mind, this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain on me
Still, I sit all alone,
Wishing all my feelings were gone
Gotta get over you?
Nothing for me to do?
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you out of my mind, this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to one last cry
I know I gotta be strong,
But ’round me
Life goes on and on and on, and on
I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I have my one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you out of my mind, this very last time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down to my last cry
May 15 2003
I believe its our fate to be here.
It is our destiny.
I believe this night holds for each and everyone of us… the very meaning of our lives.
This is a war and we are soldiers.
What if tomorrow the war could be over… isn’t that worth fighting for… isn’t that worth dying for… (+)
Tiredness
My mind has been very active lately and I’m starting to feel tired, I’m not sure if its because life is getting more complex or if everything is drastically getting simpler. Maybe it’s an anticipation of the transition period from married life to parenthood that is like frontal rain when warm and cool winds collide. Wife, Work, Kids, Life, God, Desire, Ambition, Love, Temptations, Memories, Anticipation, Anxieties, Ideals.
I think I need a holiday, then again I think what I really want is to work more. Maybe I just want to do the right thing, maybe I’m just trying to find out what actually is the right thing if there is ever such a thing.
Maybe it’s the instincts of wanting to be the bread winner for the family, to be the loving husband, the understanding father, the filial son, the dependable brother and the trustworthy friend. Maybe there is a deeper meaning behind everything that I thought I know so well, maybe my mind is tired, maybe my mind is in an endless and meaningless loop, maybe this is just how I can get rest from my tiredness.
Good night my world of Fairy Tales, I shall turn another chapter tomorrow.
Light vs Darkness
“The light has come into the world, and people who do evil things are judged guilty because they love the dark more than the light. People who do evil hate the light and won’t come to the light, because it clearly shows what they have done.” (+)